Looking back: Apr '25, Week 1

It's a new month, and we're in Q2 2025 now! 💜 Q1 has been a pretty hectic for both myself and global affairs! I hope Q2 brings more long-lasting, positive changes! 🌙

Been really sleepy and tired all week, but I tried my best to do what I needed to! Managed to find little pockets of time to edit vocals, but I found myself feeling like working on something different. :') Might finish this cover and move on to the idea that came to mind last night. 🤔

✨ Gaming -- Cleared the first floor of the FFXIV 7.2 savage raid tier despite all the anxiety, farmed for a Mizutsune set in MonHunWilds, and did some side quests in Borderlands

Progress was slower than I hoped, but we still cleared the fight by our second 3-hour session. Honestly, when we hit enrage more than once (i.e. insufficient damage dealt), I felt responsible and would have lost my mind if we didn't eventually clear the fight.

I was scared to look at my DPS logs after the clear, because I felt that I had so much room for improvement, but I'll try to believe my raid static leader's comment that I'm doing good. 🥹 I know it's a team effort, but I want to be better to hopefully secure good progress even if anyone slips up. I'll try my best, but try to remember that I'm... still human. 🤔🤔🤔

On a random note, I missed looking at my red Sharlayan Paladin outfit, so I changed my dancer glamour to look like a version of it that's easier to move in - just for this raid tier though, since I'll be spending so many hours playing as a dancer.

Argh! The sun! It burns my eyes! Hahaha

If only I had this around while raiding. 🥹

MonHunWilds was a nice getaway from the stress of raiding, especially since the new barrel bowling mini-game gets your palico to do this cute cheering action while you roll.

Nothing too special about Borderlands! It's a little tiring to play solo because I hate the thought of dying alone, but it was a nice change of pace from FFXIV too!

✨ Cleaning and rest -- Tried my best to clean my living space despite feeling really tired

I got lots of sleep last night so I feel alright as of today, but most of last week I felt like I couldn't get out of bed. :( I still dragged my feet around the house because there was so much to be done, but there was a day that I couldn't take the exhaustion that I just lay down on the cold hard floor and passed out. :'D

I think it was difficult to fully rest up because I usually get anxiety attacks the days I have savage raid in the evening, so that kept sapping what little energy I had across the day. :\ I've gotten used to this and have learned to manage the attacks better over the years, but it doesn't change the fact that when it catches me unawares, I get robbed off a bit of energy. x'D

On the bright side, I got through the week and the living space is back to being rather neat! 💜 I think I did my best, and I'm glad!

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Hopes for this week

♪ Share a new cover before the end of the week! Please look forward to it!

♪ Edit vocals! I hope I find enough motivation and energy to be productive!

☆ FFXIV: Savage raid week 2. Hope we clear floor 2 and 3! 🥺

Thank you for reading! 🌙🐰