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Looking back: Oct '25, Week 4
- Minerva Murasaki
- Oct 27
- 6 min read
This week felt really long as several things cropped up that threw me off my plans for the week. 🤔 But I think I still got to do many things this week, and for that I'm grateful. 🥺💖
✨ Gaming -- It's been a tiring week of various strenuous games. 🥺 EXCEPT...
Man, I need to fix my Reshade so that I can have nice game screenshots. 🙃 But yes, I spent most of the week repeating the FFXIV deep dungeon to help my friends get the accessories and mount. I wasn't interested in either, but I like gaming with them, so why not. 🥹
I'm glad we're done! (Unless I help 1 friend with 2 more clears for an item he wanted.) We made small progress with the Quantum-40 difficulty of the final boss too. Somehow the fight doesn't feel difficult, but I still trip up and caused so many wipes. 🥺 Oh well. I hope my friends don't lose patience with me. 😭😭😭
In other news! MHWilds released a Halloween event! I did the event fight just enough times to make 1 set of layered armor, but kept my current look on cause I wasn't too fond of the event outfit. 🤔
Got rekt by the Arch Tempered Nu Udra fight, but I'm glad I died less over time... because I resigned to being like everyone else and fighting from the floor. 🥹 Sometimes I need to learn the hard way that I need to do better, not feel better.
And just as I thought I was done with MHWilds for the week, I was summoned to help a friend to clear the Omega Planetes fights (normal and savage). I had already unequipped the mogstone and even almost deleted my loadouts specially set for the fight, so thank god I had not! The fight was still as thrilling, so I had a good time sweating over dodging on time... as I watched all my friends guard their way through mechanics. =3= 🤣
What's a week without Don't Starve Together? A friend wanted to try the Shipwrecked mod, so we did just that and boy was it hell to play (for me, at least). I've played this mod before, but it's been so long since that I've long forgotten what needs to be done, so I wasted a lot of time just wandering around and dying. It made me reflect on how I'm weak at reacting to new scenarios, in-game and in-real-life. But fortunately most IRL scenarios have sufficient time for me to come up with a plan, and in-game scenarios can always be challenged again if I fail. 🙃
It's still a tiring game that left me thinking, "What am I struggling for?"
Maybe I just miss Wormwood's cute smile. 🥺💜
And it's time to talk about the game that actually kept me energized, especially leading into the later half of the week!
Seeing as that the Ryu Ga Gotoku Studio was having a huge sale in preparation for their new titles (Kiwami 3 and Zero Director's cut), I finally bought Judgment, Lost Judgment, and Pirate Yakuza! ⭐️ I didn't realize that Judgment was one of the newer titles, so I was pleasantly surprised to see the more modern UI (similar to Like A Dragon). Heck, even the claw catcher's updated physics felt like rage bait! 🤣
I haven't spent much time playing the game because of all the other game commitments I had this week, but I hope to spend more time on it this week! 🥺
✨ Projects -- Worked on the video for my next cover!
Nothing much to say about this, other than that I'm looking forward to when I can finally publish my cover of this song that I've liked for a long time! Hopefully soon! I'm just waiting for the mix to be done and I'll put it up as soon as I can! 🎵
✨ Random interesting thing -- Learned more about Jungian type dynamics, the "upgraded MBTI"
I've always found personality tests interesting. Not to box people into stereotypes, but because I find it difficult to navigate how to best talk to or behave around some people, learning the vocabulary to describe people helps give me insight into what might make someone tick. Most importantly, it helps me understand the differences between myself and others, so that I can be more empathetic/ forgiving/ understanding when people make decisions or "mistakes" that I normally wouldn't have.
I came across the Jungian type dynamics years ago, but it felt foreign because there was never a personality test focused around its concepts. Until this week! It was interesting to be presented with multiple "most likely" personalities for me to read about and consider changing my understanding of myself.
But alas, I think the best fit is still the same, although I now can see how I could possibly be more like another personality type... in an ideal world. (My result's here for my future self/ if anyone is interested!)
Several friends also took this test, and many struggled with their understanding of being introverted or extroverted, associating it to how much they love socializing, or whether or not they feel that they have a social battery that needs recharging away from others. If only more people read the long explanation of Jungian type dynamics before starting the test! >:(
Anyway! Good to know! Now it's back to reality where everything is nuanced. :)
✨ I love snacks! Finally opened my box of Dinoland and tried some Japanese mochi that my friend gave when she was over for vocal recording.
They were all tasty! I also had Nutella sandwich more than once this week! I hope I don't grow fat!
That said, here's what the dinos look like!
I bought this because of the cute illustrations on the box. Guess what the biscuits actually looked like?
Oh well! The Elasmosaurus and Mosasaurus are funny though. 🤣
And here's what the Japanese mochi looked like!
Maybe I should eat less this week to make up for the overeating last week. 🤔
✨ And a small bummer. Well, not small, but I hope it's small.
On Friday, I started noticing a darkened patch in my vision. I swear that it was not there before -- definitely wasn't there when I was working on the cover MV on Tuesday. After rationalizing with my partner and Googling to understand what could be happening, I hoped that once my migraine passed that the spot would subside. I had a tension headache that day, and I thought that it could be a sign that a migraine was coming within 72 hours.
Well, the migraine hit like a truck on Sunday. But now it's over, and the patch is still there. Based on what I've read online, I might have paracentral scotoma? But I don't know for sure. It's difficult to explain invisible ailments.
After discussing with my partner and mother, I decided to request for an appointment to get it checked by a specialist. In the best case scenario, it will disappear before I even see the doctor. Alternatively, that I will see the doctor and find a remedy within a few sessions, or that nothing can be done about it and I just need to live with the small patch for the rest of my life.
In the worst case scenario, I'll need to consider what I'm going to do after it worsens.
For now, I can only hope that whichever doctor I meet will be able to help, and that my wallet holds up.
P.S.: I just found out that my partner had increased my monitor screen last Sunday from 10~20 brightness that I had set previously to 45... (we don't remember what it used to be anymore) No wonder I constantly felt like I was going to get a migraine from photosensitivity all week... Oh well! It's been reset, and I feel better already, but I still see the dark spot, so I guess it is not due to my screen brightness. 🥺
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Hopes for this week
♪ Upload a new cover? :D
♪ Practice vocals for another song? :)
☆ Touch grass to allow my eyes to focus on things further away? But I hope I don't trigger another migraine from the dazzling lights in some shopping malls...
☆ Play Judgment!
☆ I want to play Baldur's Gate 3 but probably won't have time for that... 🥺💔
Thank you for reading! 🌙🐰
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